Blink, Weezer, & emo rock

Ah, late nights. I just saw the videos for The Rock Show and HashPipe. I am currently nursing a huge girlie boner for both songs. Neither video was what I anticipated, but they were both interesting, none the less.

I think what makes me like both songs so much is that they remind me of being a kid, instead of tottering on the brink of adulthood like I am now. Blink 182 reminds me of the summer after I graduated. That song, What's My Age Again, was in heavy rotation and I remember cruising around, singing that at the top of my lungs. It reminds me of being carefree and, I don't know, think that being 17 was the highlight of life; of somehow all of those magical moments would be frozen in time and I would be eternally 17.

Weezer reminds me more of being, god, 15, maybe? I remember watching the video to Buddy Holly on MTV a good deal and thinking that the singer was the bee's knees. I mean, he's still pretty adorable in that sad, sensitive way that makes everyone (and I do mean everyone) wonder why their boyfriend isn't like that. Like Matt said, it's the kind of music that sad, teenager girls sit in their bedrooms and listen to.

I guess knowing so many of my friends are graduating soon is making me sappy. It kind of hurts that I've lost touch with so many people for whom I really cared. Nothing ever stays the same, as much as I really wish I could freeze frame it.

I'm really groggy right now and vaguely upset. Tonight is Faint night, which makes me very happy. I haven't done anything lately that isn't totally adult. I want to feel young and do things instead of feeling like I'm fucking 40. I hate everything. Christ, I'm whiny. If I keep this up, someone might mistake me for Weenie-Boy.

On a light note, it's time I come out of the closet...

*sniff* I'm secretly starting to like emo. Tonight, I willingly downloaded a New Found Glory song [but it was stuck in my head, really!], a Midtown song [I had to!], and a Small Brown Bike song [but I always liked them!]. It must be all the pollen in the air. There is no other real explanation [other than no one is forcing it down my throat now.]

Mm, that feels better. Is there a support group that I can join for this?

Samantha Gets Mad

For your reading pleasures:

I received this email from someone, evidently on my mailing list:

> > ----- Original Message -----

> > From: "loves kunt"

> > To: "Samantha"

> > Sent: Wednesday, June 06, 2001 7:38 AM

> > Subject: Re: Guess what?

> >

> >

> > > cool give me your pic, you know for what, if u

> > dont

> > > know send me a mail i will tell u' I like ure

> > looks

> > >

I reply with confusion. Don't I have pix on my page already?

He replies:

----- Original Message -----

From: "loves kunt"

To: "Samantha"

Sent: Friday, June 08, 2001 2:01 AM

Subject: Re: Guess what?

> hi

> baby pleasend me your pic, because i want to see your

> pic and masterbate, ant u proud of that so please, i

> am waiting for u

>

And I, offended, reply:

I should hope that English is not your native language, as that would be the only excuse for your horrendous spelling and abominable grammar.

Furthermore, I will not send you pictures of myself for you to masturbate to. It's wonderful that you wish to sexually pleasure yourself and if you need visual stimulation, there are a great deal of good, free porn sites out there. I am not, however, "proud" that you deem me sexually attractive. Are you so much of a troglodyte that you feel all women are here simply for your pleasure? That all women will feel "proud" because you have decided to want to wank off looking at their images? Beyond that, had I, even for an inkling, considered sending you my images, your approach is atrocious. You do not email someone randomly and tell them that they are acceptable and may speak with you. And by the way, scholar, you misspelled 'cunt'.

Lastly, did I mention suck my dick? Right, there it is.

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I hate that people think a woman is going to fall all over herself for something like that. Mr. LovesKunt, how about you change your name to 14 year old who has never (and will never if you continue to behave that way) gotten any. Do you kiss your mother with that mouth, you son of a pig? Wait, I'm sorry, I've insulted pigs.. They at least have some worth, unlike you.

So yea, to sum it up, you can suck my dick.