:(

[devilgrrl]

I miss Gramma. This was her favourite holiday and it hurt like a bleeding wound all day. I started crying when my cranberries gelled-- something she always wanted them to do and when I made her favourite pie.

It's been a year... why does it hurt so much still? Will it always hurt like this?

Comments

[easter.livejournal.com]

A year isn't so long when you've loved them for a lifetime.

Peace to you, Samantha.

[call-me-ps.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I think there will always be times that you'll feel it more acutely than others.

[wishuponakate.livejournal.com]

Agreed.

*hugs* to you, S.

[wickedshadow.livejournal.com]

You can never put a time limit of missing a loved one that past away. I found myself wanting to tell my mom something just the other day and she's been gone for over ten years. It still brought a smile to my face thinking about what she might have said if she were still about.

[sarakenobi.livejournal.com]

it won't always hurt, but right now it will hurt, and for the next few holidays <3

[ragdollgirl.livejournal.com]

i am so sorry for your loss....and to answer your question.....the hurt dulls as the years go by.....

i assure you...my grandmother has been dead for over 20 years and i can now tolerate february.....the month she died.


beth

[joyfulchaos.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I think the pain gets better and I'll feel really peaceful, then on holidays or my dad's birthday, or a random memory will pop up out of nowhere and I'll feel it really intensely. It's been a little over two years, which is still soon, so I don't know if it will always hurt. But, I can empathize. <3

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

This is true and I need to remind myself of it. One year alone is nothing to the 26 with.

Thanks, Dayna.

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I think the holidays are always tough. Thanks, Beth and Kate.

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping to get to that point where thinking about something she did will make me smile. I'm still trying to phone her now and then and it's nothing but pain.

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I had hoped this would be a little easier since it's the second season without her, but not really. Sucks :(

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I pretty much hate November. The only good thing in it is my sister's birthday.

I'm hoping it gets easier.

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your dad.

It's those little random memories that just kill. I wince when I hear my voice on the answerphone, making her favourite pie was tough, or when I saw a pin I wanted to get her for Christmas.

Blah. Holidays. <3

[sarakenobi.livejournal.com]

one of my friends hasa really hard time around the holidays and she lost her mom maybe... 5 years ago? its not the same thing as a grandma but I think it can be :(

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm starting to realize that loss is loss, whether it's a parent or a grandparent or a friend. It's all a matter of how close you were to the person. When my father's parents passed away, it hardly phased me.

The holidays are tough for a lot of people, it seems.