Won't be on on/coherent for a bit.

[devilgrrl]

My grandmother passed away this morning at 8:30. I am not handling it especially well, so I'm not sure how much I'll be on (probably a lot) or responding to people (probably very little). We're heading down to RI right now to be with family.

Comments

[wildpeyote.livejournal.com]

Gracious, Samantha. I'm sorry to hear about your Grandmother and sorry for your loss as well. I hope that in time, you will be able to celebrate her life and cherish the time you've had with her. I'm sure that she loved you very much and always will.

Prayers to you and yours.

Halima

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

I already know how blessed I was to have her at our wedding, to have the chance to get to know her, and to have so many years with her, but I just can't fathom calling and not having her answer or see her in the living room with the cat when I come in, or any of it.

I just feel so lost right now. She and my grandfather were the only two stable points in my life.

[wildpeyote.livejournal.com]

She and your grandfather are *still* the most stable parts of your life. Everything she was to you, gave you, and the love, stability, and compassion she provided you with life exist and always exist in you as long as you live a life she would be proud of you for living.

My grandmother was like a mother to me and she was the best part of my life and the person who taught me to live with beauty, grace, and integrity. I honor her daily in the way that I journey through life.

It will be hard not seeing her or hearing her voice anymore, but every word she ever said to you is recorded somewhere in your heart and mind and you'll clearly recall those memories for the rest of your life.

Love, Halima

[devilgrrl.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it's a comfort that Mum and I both sounds exactly like her. At least I will hear her every time we talk. It's just so hard to know I can't hug her anymore, that I'll only see her in pictures again

I really appreciate your kind words, Halima. I am trying to keep them in my mind, even as lost as I feel.