Doesn't make a lot of sense, does it?

I already know how blessed I was to have her at our wedding, to have the chance to get to know her, and to have so many years with her, but I just can't fathom calling and not having her answer or see her in the living room with the cat when I come in, or any of it.

I just feel so lost right now. She and my grandfather were the only two stable points in my life.