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Still not feeling well after, what, four days? I've been tired all day and I have a little bit of a headache now and still feel a little sick. I'm guessing that this is basically all from stress, but still... I hate feeling nauseous.
Actually, this might be because I'm still not sleeping. My body processes drugs way too effectively and the ambien I was perscribed to "break" the insomnia cycle doesn't really do much more than allow me to sleep for about three hours solidly.
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It's been a bit of a long day. Dawn came down for the day and we ended up wandering around the Burlington Mall for 3+ hours before having lunch at Uno's. Seeing Dawn was good, but more than an hour in a mall makes me exhausted.
We were talking a little bit about marriage and how it's not everything it's shown to be on the way back from the mall and, evidently, I'm really jaded about it. I guess most people don't view it as a business contract..?
I can't imagine entering into a marriage without a prenup. It seems to me like going into business with a partner without incorporating. It's stupid not to protect yourself.
I mean, when you really get down to it, marriage is nothing more than a contract for a business partnership. When you get married, you pool separate assets to become a single entity. From there, you create revenue (jobs), pay obligators (bills), work to run an efficient home, and potentially expand (have kids) and make decisions on products (parent). I see a prenup as being a way to ensure the protection of your assets in case the business (marriage) fails. That way, no one loses everything.
Obviously, I realise that partnership and marriage have a more human element than that, but you could have companionship with a pet as much as with a person. No sex, obviously, but nothing is perfect.
(Ha.. Like I would do well without sex.)
Romantisised ideas of marriage scare me. It's all well and good that you'll love, honour, and cherish each other is sickness and health, richer or poorer, but love doesn't pay bills and solve arguments. Promises aren't going to help when you live on a hundred bucks a week with bills to pay. No one ever tells you that when you're waltzing around in a $1,000 confection of a dress.
Watching my parents' marriage die slowly and painfully over the course of 10 years really jaded me. It's hard to listen to your father badmouth your mother while she's trying to squeeze by and he can't even cough up $100 a month to help out. It's hard to be stuck in the middle, to not be taken for a visitation week because you're wanted, but because he feels obligated to you (and proceeds to criticise and belittle your plans the whole time because "you're a screw-up").
Especially when you get the college is so important speech, but he won't cough up a dime to help out and his only encouragement is that I should stop fucking around and just drop out.
I digress... I never want to divorce, but if I have to, I want it to be mostly cut and dry. Not like my mother's... Bloodless.
More later, getting hazy.
Actually, this might be because I'm still not sleeping. My body processes drugs way too effectively and the ambien I was perscribed to "break" the insomnia cycle doesn't really do much more than allow me to sleep for about three hours solidly.
It's been a bit of a long day. Dawn came down for the day and we ended up wandering around the Burlington Mall for 3+ hours before having lunch at Uno's. Seeing Dawn was good, but more than an hour in a mall makes me exhausted.
We were talking a little bit about marriage and how it's not everything it's shown to be on the way back from the mall and, evidently, I'm really jaded about it. I guess most people don't view it as a business contract..?
I can't imagine entering into a marriage without a prenup. It seems to me like going into business with a partner without incorporating. It's stupid not to protect yourself.
I mean, when you really get down to it, marriage is nothing more than a contract for a business partnership. When you get married, you pool separate assets to become a single entity. From there, you create revenue (jobs), pay obligators (bills), work to run an efficient home, and potentially expand (have kids) and make decisions on products (parent). I see a prenup as being a way to ensure the protection of your assets in case the business (marriage) fails. That way, no one loses everything.
Obviously, I realise that partnership and marriage have a more human element than that, but you could have companionship with a pet as much as with a person. No sex, obviously, but nothing is perfect.
(Ha.. Like I would do well without sex.)
Romantisised ideas of marriage scare me. It's all well and good that you'll love, honour, and cherish each other is sickness and health, richer or poorer, but love doesn't pay bills and solve arguments. Promises aren't going to help when you live on a hundred bucks a week with bills to pay. No one ever tells you that when you're waltzing around in a $1,000 confection of a dress.
Watching my parents' marriage die slowly and painfully over the course of 10 years really jaded me. It's hard to listen to your father badmouth your mother while she's trying to squeeze by and he can't even cough up $100 a month to help out. It's hard to be stuck in the middle, to not be taken for a visitation week because you're wanted, but because he feels obligated to you (and proceeds to criticise and belittle your plans the whole time because "you're a screw-up").
Especially when you get the college is so important speech, but he won't cough up a dime to help out and his only encouragement is that I should stop fucking around and just drop out.
I digress... I never want to divorce, but if I have to, I want it to be mostly cut and dry. Not like my mother's... Bloodless.
More later, getting hazy.