Doesn't make a lot of sense, does it?

Those bonging gongs for me are just quiet dings every now and again. I did find a way to help me through the "I MUST HAVE A BABY NOW!" times though. It ususally included working in the nursery at church and going to visit my mom. She volunteered at a house called Open Arms. They always had babies. Generally those baby fixes helped. Sometimes though I still want one. I feel like I'm a failure in that regard, that I never did have a baby, even though every part of my brain says "buck up fool, you did the right thing", but there is this little voice that asks "did you really?"