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The Herald of the Apocolypse ([personal profile] devilgrrl) wrote2007-11-29 01:31 pm
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Won't be on on/coherent for a bit.

My grandmother passed away this morning at 8:30. I am not handling it especially well, so I'm not sure how much I'll be on (probably a lot) or responding to people (probably very little). We're heading down to RI right now to be with family.

[identity profile] mermaidinblack.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, love. All my prayers go with you. Be easy, sweetheart.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm trying. It's not going to well right now. I already took a valium. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this because that was the only real home I always had,

[identity profile] easter.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I am very, very sorry to hear of your loss, Samantha. My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you and your family. God bless.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. If it's not much to ask, could you say an extra prayer for my grandfather? This is got to be the worst for him.

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[identity profile] call-me-ps.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so sorry.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. I'm sure we're going to need them in the days to come.

[identity profile] mom-o-cass.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 06:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh my goodness. Samantha, I am very sorry to hear about her passing. I have heard so many lovely things about her and your grandfather over the years and I know she means so much to you. I remember how important it was to you for your wedding to be on thier anniversary. my thoughts and prayers are with your family, especially your grandfather who must be missing her terribly. If there is ANYTHING I can do to bring you comfort or help out in any way, please let me know.

Xo
Jenne

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I really thank you for your offers. I don't even know what I need to do or what I can do. I feel so incredibly lost. Jenne, I have no idea how I'm going to get through this. I feel so lost.

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[identity profile] littlestarletta.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 07:07 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find solace somehow during this difficult time.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
I do to. Right now, I just can't seem to do anything. I wish I understood God's plan and why this had to happen.

[identity profile] justsurvive.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
i am so sorry. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. *hugs*

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks you so muich. *hugs back* Jane

[identity profile] papayarain.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
*hug* Our thoughts and prayers to you and your family. Drive safely, and *hug*

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks. We drove safe, I petted Gramma's kitty a lot, and we did a little retail therapy. I still feel so empty though. I had to leave the house early-- I thought I was hearing her voice.

[identity profile] wickedshadow.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry to hear about your loss.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
I am too. It hurts so much.

[identity profile] nyhamsterhouse.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so, so sorry to hear this, Samantha.... I know from reading what you've written about your grandmother that she was important to you--close to you, and in some ways a touchstone for you. I'm so sorry to hear this, and I'm thinking good thoughts about you and your family too.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
She was always my touchstone. I don't know how I'm going to live without her. I don't know who I'm going to call when I need advice anymore. She was always there for me, telling me I was fine, I wasn't a screw-up, and she'd always love me.

I don't know how I'm going to keep going, Jess. I don't know how.

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[identity profile] ladyvixenheart.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I hope you find a way to hang in there.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm trying, but it's damn hard. I can't even keep food down right now. I don't know how I'm going get up tomorrow, honestly.

[identity profile] nowitsdark0.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so very sorry for your loss. I will say extra prayers for you and your grandfather. I know how much she meant to you. You have our love and sympathy.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much, Jessica. It really means a lot, especially the extra prayers for my grandfather. He needs them a lot.

[identity profile] dec-29-2006.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
oh, i am so sorry. I know this is a tough time. Try to keep your head up, being with family always helps.

thinking and praying of you and your family.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
It's so hard. She died a month to the day before their wedding anniversary. She sounded so good when I talked to her on Sunday evening. I don't know what I'm going to do.

[identity profile] roseyposey722.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
*Big Hugs* I'm so very sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. I know things are hard are with you guys too. *hugs back*

[identity profile] amity26.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so, so much. We really need the prayers right now.

[identity profile] metalchick1000.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
i am so sorry to hear of your (and your family's) pain. my best and good thoughts to all.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much, Ava. It means an awful lot to me.

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[identity profile] miss-tina.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry hun :(

*big monster hugs that don't let go*

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I can use all the hugs I can get, anyway I can get them.

[identity profile] maa3120.livejournal.com 2007-11-29 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry for your loss, Samantha. If there's anything I can do, let me know. You're close in my thoughts.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. I don't even know what I need right now, except for this to be a bad dream. I just can't figure out how to go on right now.

[identity profile] wildpeyote.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
Gracious, Samantha. I'm sorry to hear about your Grandmother and sorry for your loss as well. I hope that in time, you will be able to celebrate her life and cherish the time you've had with her. I'm sure that she loved you very much and always will.

Prayers to you and yours.

Halima

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
I already know how blessed I was to have her at our wedding, to have the chance to get to know her, and to have so many years with her, but I just can't fathom calling and not having her answer or see her in the living room with the cat when I come in, or any of it.

I just feel so lost right now. She and my grandfather were the only two stable points in my life.

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[identity profile] rockgoddess.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
I am sorry for your loss.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much.

[identity profile] virgoearthgirl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
omgomgomg. (((((((hugs))))))))

I am sending up prayers for you. I am so so sorry.

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. I need them *hugs back*

[identity profile] jesheckahlynn.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
All I can offer is hugs so *hugs*

[identity profile] devilgrrl.livejournal.com 2007-11-30 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you soo much. It really does mean a lot. Everyone's comments mean so much to me.